There might be people around here who would wonder who is Aelathen and why are they following her?
I
am not a special person in any way and I have no special reasons for
being followed but I will start telling you everything about me, as well
because this blog will be used like a Diary, a diary where everyone can
read (sounds contradictory) *giggles*.
So...My name is
Carina, soon Carina von Ziegler...I was born and raised in Romania
since 29 of august 1993, however I moved to Portugal almost 6 years ago.
I do not consider myself romanian nor portugues, I am a person living
on the Planet Earth and a person that loves everything about it with
every little culture out there.
I am an "artist", and you might
ask why the "?...well because simply I dont consider myself good enough
to write by my own myself that I am an artist. For me art has always
been an expression of feelings, telling my own stories through my
pictures that being digital art such as photomanipulation with digital
painting and lately photography, since I was very young I knew I must
use pictures in life...While some do it for popularity or making
themselves look better in society, I do it simply to express myself in
those moments, art for me has a lot deeper meaning than gaining
recognition therefor I do not search for one, I simply share my stories
with people, there´s why I hate to call my followers "fans", I do not
have fans, it adds a certain bad feeling to my mind when I imagine
calling anyone my "fan".
I would tell you more about
"my" life but I dont have any life, that being said...There is only OUR
Life...mine and MY Beloveds Adrian von Ziegler because without him there
is no me and when I look back I see nothing but a shadow of a person
who was always dreaming and kept herself for him and longing to find him
that it just doesnt even matter the whole before. We always say that we
are One, One Soul into Eternity. Many of you might doubt now or think I
am just using beautiful words because after all people have always used
the word "love" without truly meaning it; We use any word about ourself
with the deepest honesty. Adrian is a composer about any kind of music
and together we are making even our "arts" One.
I cannot tell you
how I really am because not I really know...What I do know is that most
of the time I am in a constant battle with myself because I do not like
who I am and my self esteem is missing, however it is useless to try to
boost it as it never does no matter of words and I have learned to live
this way. I am the kind of person that wishes to have lived in a
different world a world of respect, sincerity, kindness and love, a
world that has no murderers, no animal abusers, no people cheating and
destroying families, a world with no war and the list could continue
forever...I do not live in that world and I am having a hard time to
live here even thought I try to show that I am tough...
Far from that more I can say about
how I am...NATURE LOVER...I treasure the nature around us and wish we
could keep it for as long as we can...however we humans have the best
talent of destruction and then when nature strikes back we still wonder
"God why???..."...Problem is that because of a few we all have to suffer
sometimes... However again...I am FASCINATED by nature.
I will try to tell you almost everything that I love...
I
enjoy so much reading about different cultures and religions, aliens
and paranormal and then try to somehow match all those things together
to see if there is by luck any kind of relation in between, so for those
who might ask me what my religion is...I dont know...I am a believer,
not a person that lives into some kind of cult made up by men.
I
LOVE fantasy related stories and things. I am the kind of person who
would have a dragon as pet *giggle* and who would listen the whole day
at the elven language, the kind of person that listens to instrumental
songs and symphonies just because lyrics dont leave space for my exact
way of feeling while with the instrumental songs I can create my own
story, I do enjoy lyrics but they have to be beautiful and definitely
not the kind of "Hey sexy" and such...*runs in circle and giggles*.
I can as well stay hours to photograph a bee!
What
else could I tell you to let you know me better...Dreams the dreams
that I have are maybe the most boring sounding for you but so important
for me...I dream to live in peace with My Beloved, in our house, to have
a beautiful healthy child together when we feel secure enough to give
him/her a beautiful life, I dream that my parents will be happy always
too and then I dream that the whole world will be happy, that there will
be no evil and that no one would ever miss the essential things for
living, I wish for no war and no killings, for honesty and deep
thinking...why do I feel that this last wish...is just another wish not
coming true...
However...
This is in a very short way who I am...
by Aelathen aka CarinaGrimm.
PS: I LOVE hot chocolate, fairies, cartoons, playing dress up games and cheese. (Silly part of me *giggles*...)!!!.
<3
ReplyDeleteDear Carina, it was such a pleasure to read this! I agree with basically everything you have written, especially the part about self-esteem and wishing to live in another world, a kinder world without misery and cruelty... -.-
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing person, and a truly talented one!
- louiel
Carina, I have been a fan of yours since I was a fan of your beloved Adrian, when I found his Music, I instantly Loved it, and realized you were the artist, I was expecting an older person, and found you to be a young, beautiful, talented person But it seems your youth has the experience of that of someone older, its amazing, simply beautiful, I feel your personality is such a peaceful soul, I know you & Adrian are one together & you both shall be huge as you further your careers, You should be so proud of your work, Its worldwide, I hope you know that. I am on Youtube as Jon Silvestri or Abigailisalive, was on FB as Jon silvestri, I recently left FB but will come back soon. I live in NY, USA, where I work as a Paramedic in NYC, its a rough place to work, but I live 25 miles north in the forest, my private, quiet, cottage in the forest away from the city and its terminal problems and people. But Im lucky I have Adrians music & your art which both inspire me & keep me happy everyday. After reading your "about me" section, I think you should be on top of the world, because people all over the world know who you & Adrian are... and the beauty you create together, Yes the world has many problems I wish I could make it a better place to live as well, I try to do my part as a Paramedic, but in this generation, I feel priveleged and lucky to spend the short time we all have here on earth with such impressive people such as you & Adrian,
ReplyDeleteJon Silvestri
kngdmnd@optonline.net
Yorktown, NY, USA
I love your vulnerability. Please, Keep dreaming, These Feeling you make from the dreaming ist how reality is made of. I am sure you will learn to see and speak to yourself with love inside as the years go by.
ReplyDeletePerhaps you have heard of inner child healing? and perhaps you might like this ideas?My love and Blessings to you.
Hello,
ReplyDeleteI am very impressed by your words, because I feel nearly same. Often I ask my self why people destroy envionment and nature - beacause something thescreate thmeselfs...paper with special meaning (money), ironicly paper is made of woods...this thoughts somertimes make me feel scarry and a bit painfully. What if no one ever could run through a forrest and look to on the treetops by sunrising? ...
Your written words are reminding me anout my feelings and things I thought about.
I want to tell you a story of mine but I feel a bit shy and insecure to write it down in a such 'public' place and I am also curios to hear/read your story :)
Luna ~
(lunahelling@yahoo.de)
Hey Carina,
ReplyDeleteI really enjoyed reading what you wrote about yourself and Adrian.
First off I would like to say congratulations to you both!!
You two truly sound like a great couple!! I wish you all the best in your life together as a married couple(:
I say some of your work on facebook and I really love it! you are truly talented!
It is so nice to see you and Adrian working together and combining your art. His music tells a story and so does your art and together, I for one, could really get a picture rolling in my head.
When you talked about being a nature lover and told us about your opinion of how man-kind destroys (practically) everything in nature and we always ask why... I couldn't agree with you more!! That is exactly what I think.. I love nature!
When it comes to fantasy stories and things alike... I too love them to bits!
If you do ever get a pet dragon.. could you tell me where to get one too?? I would love that!
Your patience is amazing! There aren't many people that could sit hours just to photograph a bee. Its a quality that is worth hanging on to for the long run(:
I do understand what you said about self esteem.. I have that on going battle with myself too.. But as time passes I think we learn how to look at ourselves with a smile, no matter what seems to be showing when we look at ourselves. Just keep at it and don't stop until you are satisfied with how you look at yourself(:
Plus.. It always helps to have people around that remind you in even the smallest things, how much you are worth and open your eyes to things you might have shut out or forgotten.
Your dreams are wonderful and not boring at all. Keep dreaming and day by day make your dreams come true! Just keep at it and you will get where you are going(:
You are a wonderful person in my eyes, with a golden heart!
and I was glade to have read this post and got to know you a bit(:
Wishing you all the best!
and once again Congratulations!! (:
Nofar (:
Dear Carina!
ReplyDeleteSince you've said you love Cello so much, it came to my mind that this piece of music might show you the power of Cello and its strings... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QPue5iixA0
I hope you will enjoy it. It is very powerfull, sad and dramatic music composed by Ernest Bloch, and imagine - he was Swiss-born - ring a bell? :))
And about your wish for a world without evil and suffering... well, I firmly believe that this is not just wishful thinking, since the Bible says in Revelation chapter 21, verses 3-5 what God will do for humankind.
I sincerely hope you will find true hope and comfort in the Bible as you surely find much of it in the music of your Beloved Adrian! I wish you all the best! Dragan